Update on Dad, and I'll…

Update on Dad, and I'll keep it as short as I can.

Friday, he was discharged from the hospital after having his second surgery and admitted to a rehab facility for PT so he can get his strength back and go home. He's fighting it. We prayed. He wants to know why he has this illness, he didn't do anything. He asked God for answers. He asked me and doesn’t understand. He is in no pain, but the anguish is emotional and mental. He cannot go home as his legs are weak.

I did some research. Generally, with #glioblastoma, the process can involve a lot of mental and emotional distress, as well as physical weakness. It's common for patients to experience mood swings, and sometimes they do feel a mix of anger, sadness, and even acceptance. As they near the end, there can be increased fatigue, sleepiness, and sometimes a withdrawal from the surroundings.

So he is miserable and angry tonight and adamant on getting out of the bed, but can't. The only one there with him is Mom. The doors in lock at 7pm so we can't get back in till the morning.

He really hasn't shed any tears over this as far as I know. Its getting harder and harder to communicate with him as its a circular conversation. The meds doesnt seem to be helping him sleep and I hope they don't have to strap him in. If you didn't mind drinking Soursop tea, but he listened to the doctor when he said that it most likely won't do any good, nor will an alkaline diet. I think that moment of consultation was the turning point for Dad.

I've had more lows lately than highs and they come like a flood. I'm ok and then not ok.

So yeah, I really haven't been active a whole lot here but Nostr is my home.

On another thought .... On the way up to the rehab facility, I saw a spanish lady, not dressed in expensive clothing, take a selfie of her infront of her new home. She smiled. I immediately thought to myself aloud, "bask in your glory lady." Glory days doesn't come too often but when they do, bask in it and savor it. Hardships bring that one moment of glory. I was happy for her.

#humuhumunukunukuāpuaʻa